.trumping family with friendship.

I know everyone has times when there family means nothing, and friends are all you have. I just cant help but feel guilty about loving my friends child more than my own nephew. I've been taking care of my nephew Jaiden this week, laying with him before he wakes up, making him breakfast, and playing cars. I'm happy for that, because normally I would be asleep at 11, but having some point to my to my life for just this week feels good.

A few nights ago Nick and I went to Katie's house and hung out with her and Alex and their 1 year old, Ethan. Ethan is a beautiful boy, Katie let me hold him and I fed him his bottle till he was inches from sleep, then his mother put him in his swing. I love that child, its so strange that I care about this kid more than I cared when I held Jaiden at 1 year. When Ethan was in my arms I wanted to cry, this just doesn't make any sense to me. I feel like a bad person with no loyalty to my family. I'm doing my best to love the holden, weeks, schantz, and haltom families. I always end up trumping family with friendship.
I hope this finds you well,
.holden.